Can You Outgrow a Friend?

 Hello!

Have you ever had a best friend that you just grew apart from? Basically I have this friend who I've known for my whole life and she has always been really close to me. We've been through a lot together, but recently, it's like I don't know who she is. She has changed and I know that as a teen, you change but I thought old friendships didn't change. This probably sounds really stupid but I feel like every time I talk to her, I feel less and less like myself. Sometimes I feel like a complete stranger to her. At times, it feels like it's back to normal and that nothing has changed but to get there, I feel as though I have to break down barriers. I have this constant feeling that I always have to be on her side and be there for her when I know that it wouldn't happen the other way. 

I feel like I can't just throw away fourteen years of friendship just like that but whenever I'm with her I constantly feel like I have to prove myself to her. I have better friends who will always be there for me no matter what and I know that I'll always be there for them. I have this constant feeling that I should just let her go and let her move on (and part of me wants to do that as well) but always give her another chance. She's constantly letting me down as a friend and she's hurt me too much for me to forgive her but the trouble is, is that I don't think she knows what she's doing.

 Whenever I want to move on, I remember the times when we were younger and we used to be inseparable. She has a new group of friends that constantly make me feel insignificant. Something that has been there for your entire life is harder than I think to let go of. Like your favourite childhood toy; you just don't want to let go of it. That is what it feels like..

I think I've come to the conclusion that I'm done. I'm done with pretending to be her friend when I hate being with her. I know through school that I'll always be in her life, but that doesn't mean that I have to spend my time with her. I want to spend time with people who make me feel good about myself.

Have you ever had a friend that you have moved on from??

TG xxx

Happy New Year!!

 So, the end of 2020!

What a year it was.... This year has felt like a lifetime. Although this year was very sad and challenging for everyone, I have defiently achieved many things that I am proud of!! In today's blog, I'll say three things that I achieved in 2020 and my new year resolutions!

What I achieved:

1. I've defiently learnt a lot about myelf this year! I've found out who I am and have learnt to be me! I've found out that I need my friends more than I did. When I could'nt see them over lockdown, I realised how much I missed them and how lucky I am to have them! I have also learnt that being me means that I should'nt care how I look 24/7 and that my friends and family will love me no matter how I look! For some reason, teenage girs tend to judge people a lot? I'm defiently still working on my confidence around new people but I've made a huge step of progress this year! Starting this blog, for instance, was a step out of my comfort zone, but I'm having fun writing already!
2. I've learnt how to control my anxiety! This was defiently my biggest achievement as with the help of my family, I learnt that even if my anxiety can't just go, I can control it! I know that loads of teenage girls have anxiety but until I understood that that was true, I did struggle with it. Anxiety doesn't just go but I'm defiently more experienced with how I can control it.
3. I've started my GCSE courses without completely freaking out! Now if you're not British, you probably have no idea what I'm talking about! (If anyone is even reading)! They are basically exams that Brits take when they are 15 or 16. I was pretty stressed about starting my courses because I know that the grades I get have an impact on my future but pretty soon I realised that there wasn't really anything to worry about! I've had good results so far so I just need to CHILL!!

My new year resolutions:

So I read somewhere that you should only have three resolutions so you might actually complete them! This is defiently true!! I usually make about ten and then can only remember one by the end of the year!! So here they are:

1. I want to make this blog my happy spot! From talking to other bloggers, I've learnt that blogs take time to start up so I want to percevere on with this to try and make it successful! I want this place to be for me to be ale to be me!!
2. I want to speak to grandparents more. The pandemic has resulted in me not being able to see them as frequently as I usually would. I know that isolation has been hard for them so I want to make it easier for them by speaking to them frequently.
3. I want to expand my baking skills by making loads of different things! I think this would be a good thing to do if I go into lockdown at any point!!

So that's it! If you are reading, I would love you to share with me your resolutions or things that you are proud of that you achieved in 2020 in the comments below!

lots of love,

TG xxx

Ps: I've created an Instagram for this blog and I would love you to check it out! @teengirlblog06

Hello World!

 Hello! 

So I don't really know where to start... 

To start, I'll introduce myself; I'm a fourteen year old British girl. That's about it! I mean I love to bake and sing but I wanted my on little corner to be able to be me. The internet is such a weird place. It can be really negative place (trust me, as a teenage girl, I know!) but I want this blog to be something positive that I do.

I want to blog about loads of things, like things that a teen girl has to deal with, maybe some photos of my baking and my very uneventful life!

Honestly, I have no clue how this blogging community works, but after hours on youtube, I think I've kind of got the idea of it! I want this blog to be completely honest and anonymous so I can be totally myself without anyone knowing who I am.

So why have I started to do this? Well, with this whole pandemic going on, I thought it would be cool to start a diary, but it seemed so pointless to only write it to myself so I thought I would share what I have to say with the world!

My dream one day is to become a journalist so I thought this would also be a really good starting point!

I am completey aware that know one will probably read this, but if a miricle happens and you somehow discover this, I would love you to join me in our own little honest community. I will post once a week, more if I can!

As I sit here on my bed with my mums laptop, I'm having one of those moments where I think that I have gone completely insane!! To be honest I'm pretty scared about posting this but even if this whole blog thing completely belly flops I'll keep writing here because I enjoy it.

Please comment down below if you have any tips for new bloggers (they are desperately needed here!!).

lots of love,

Teen Girl xxx